Trusting God with Little Things

Do we think too much about what God has done through us or how He has used us?  I would love to meet those who have been impacted by Jesus in me (or through me, however it should be stated).  Rejoicing with them about what God has done will be great.  But... the last question, and possibly the most painful, I want to ask is "What was the result of my unbelief?".

Yes, I'm a believer.  I'm trusting in Jesus' finished work on the cross, His blood, to wash away my sin so I may live for Him and with Him.  I'll admit, I'm not living for Him as I should and I am a work in progress.  The unbelief I am writing of is of not believing in the little day to day things.  Or it could be a big thing.  This is not of the salvation/justification level, but the sanctification level of belief.  The Israelites were saved from Egypt but wondered the in the wilderness for forty years because of their unbelief.  This is what I'm talking about.

What caused this question to percolate uncomfortably was the story of Abram and Sarai.  If Abram had believed God, 1) would he have gone to Egypt during the famine? and 2) was it okay for him to lie, by omission, about Sarai being his wife.  The going to Egypt aspect is not clear to me.  He may have needed to, and God may have ordained it for another purpose.  God doesn't tell us if Abram was supposed to go or not, so I'm going to lean towards, the going wasn't the issue, it was mearly the vehicle of the test.  The biggie comes with the second part.  Abram lied by omission.  Yes, Sarai was his half-sister, but she was his wife.  Abram trusted God to get him to a promised land, but didn't trust Him to get him out of Egypt with his wife and his life.  God had already promised the land to Abram's decendents.  Yet, with the immediate fear of death, Abram lied.  What would God have done with those Egyptians if Abram had told the truth?  

It seems like a little thing in light of the much bigger picture, but it really isn't  How many people have been negatively impacted by my unbelief?  What happened because I didn't choose to trust Christ when He said His strength is sufficient?  Who has not heard of God's grace and goodness because I chose to doubt Him instead of remembering that He will never leave nor forsake me?  What is my unbelief in the "little things" teaching my children?

While I don't think it is healthy to focus overly long on the past and things we cannot change, some reflection and remorse is needed for repentance.  What things or areas of my life have I not been trusting God with?  What have the consequences been?  How has it impacted others?  

Lord, thank You for speaking to me this morning, for opening my eyes to my failings and unbelief.  Help me to turn it over to You and trust You and Your Word.  Lord, I believe.  Help Thou mine unbelief.